I honestly dont want to grow up. As I grow, things get more and more complex. Why cant we go back to all just being friends and playing catch with each other? Why cant we have worry free days? Why must all of us get pressured to grow up? Why is it so tiring? Sure, growing up has benefits, as they call it , being able to smoke , drink, buy 4D, and club legally. But I dont care. I dont see anything fun with any of these things, I just want peace and security, being safe from all the politics. Maybe my friends have been right all these while, why have a lavish lifestyle when you can have one thats simple and peaceful with enough to pass your days with a family.
Its a contradiction really, people younger than me all want to grow up to be able to drink legally, to club and to do all that. People at my age all want to stop growing, and yet we all know that time and tide never waits for any man or woman for that case. I have always grown up as the oddball and enjoyed it. Theres nothing wrong in being able to think far advanced from your peers, but there will always be a burden.
Honestly Im always amazed at how people could live without parents, Im sure I will miss mine terribly, after all they took care of me ever since I was born, without expecting anything in return, and that is great in itself, same with 90% off our parents ,im sure.
Perhaps why Im typing this is because im afraid of the responsibilities I will have to take up, Yes I am not ready and I dont think I will ever be. Or it could be the crazy JC schedule I have to slog through, but hopefully, after this trudge, things will become better.
